I can talk about my mental illness without feeling shameful.It is true that self-destruction is a seduction. We are influenced to believe that the things of this world make you feel good and allow you to be invincible. For me, it’s helped that I serve a God that tells me that I am no longer of this world. I am a child of God and delivered from the penalty of sin. My testimony had been set free and I can talk about my mental illness without feeling shameful. I hope my testimony helps someone else. The song also says, “Lord, supply my demand to be used while I stand in the power of a love that is greater than my sense of reality.” I wrote this because my sense of reality was clouded with whatever was going on mentally, but I knew there was a love that was greater than that and could give me the power to stand.
My sense of reality was clouded mentally, but I knew there was a greater love that could give me the power to stand.This entire song is my testimony of how I was lost, literally, and found. Praise God for deliverance, though. Below are the lyrics. Let me know what you think. If you or someone you know needs help with mental health, please visit the National Alliance on Mental Illness website for resources in Austin. Lost, by Monae Miller (2012) VERSE 1 Lord supply my demand to be used while I stand in the power Of a love that is greater than my sense of reality I remember what I used to be My heart beats of freedom CHORUS I was lost, searching and searching Spiraling out of control No peace, no rest Just hunger, distress While I search for you Long for you and wait for you VERSE 2 Lord reveal all the plans that will amplify the goodness of you in me Heal the brokenness as I turn from the seduction of my self-destruction Set free my testimony CHORUS (Repeat)
Monae started out playing the piano when she was 8 years old but transitioned to the acoustic guitar in 2014. She has loved the acoustic guitar ever since. She recently released her sophomore CD #ForeverAlive. A version of this article originally appeared on her Monae Miller Music blog.